15 things I will never forget about the Islamabad trip:

1) Marriott.
2)Veronica Franco
3)The feminist argument
4)Zahras dilemma at my farm
5)Brutus's abuse of me
6)Chottay Aalam Channay and the translation of striptease
7)My possesiveness towards the keycard
8)The insanely expensive complementary breakfast
9)Bathrobes that you get emotionally attached to
10)Swimming in a shalwar
11)Fizas crazy laughing fits in ikkys car
12)Being marginalized in the backest seat of the Prado
13)Crazy sad women reality shows that I was forced to watch for many many hours
14)The tragedy that befell me in the daewoo on the way back
15)Dogs jumping on spring mattresses

Happiness.

I'm writing here because i have a 2000 word paper due in 7 hours and procastination is always a better option.... just finished writing such a long email, another fun thing to do when more important things await. my thought of the day for today is how little things in life can make u so happy, like getting a good grade when u weren't expecting it, or someone saying something that is uncharacteristic of them, watching desperate housewives at the end of a long day of endless classes, and best of all: finding out that the paper due today is not even graded. what if you put all these small happinesses together in a chain and it forms a big happiness for u... can it make u happy about the broader scheme of things or do we need something big for that, something big enough to sustain the happiness. But i've found the euphoria of everything fades away sooner or later, so why not just add up the little things and make them last as long as we can.
i will ponder on this for a while now, something to waste more time with.

My Brain Pattern

Your Brain's Pattern

Your mind is a firestorm - full of intensity and drama.Your thoughts may seem scattered to you most of the time...But they often seem strong and passionate to those around you.You are a natural influencer. The thoughts you share are very powerful and persuading.

What Pattern Is Your Brain?

yummy weather!!

what a day!get up go to class teacher doesnt show up...go for breakfast..come back put on sad s0ngs and enjoy the weather.
aaah life...

Realizations of the day for today Friday 10th March 2006

1) Even if I chose to, I can't brush my hair because its too wild and curly and hairbrushes get stuck in it.
2) My little brother has turned ten and does not know that hi is spelt hi and not hai.
3) Everything I wrote in a previous post about moving on was bullshit.

thursday 9th march 2006 11:32 am

20 minutes before philo of education...after intro to philo me and myself made a pact to never take a philo course again but i apparently went back on the pact 2 quarters later...its not a bad course i just need to actually do the readings this time.
creative writings such a nice course :) which is why i have decided i will write in my blog everyday to keep the creative juices flowing, even though nothing i write here needs any creativity at all, its just an outlet where i empty the contents of this confused mind.
dinner yesterday at humas home with zahra and zenab was quite fun, its nice to get out of lums and chill at someones home even if all u end up doing is watching american idol and talking abt miguel and yasser hashmi :)
unless cbl somehow interferes, i am going home in two weeks to babysit daniel and buddy and phoebe and cattacino while the parents fly off to some conference somewhere. i'm so happy!nothing better come between me and this plan now.
i'm lissening to babylon...aah a level days...
ok now i shall get ready for the philo class
i miss nadz and losty
farhad is leaving today...i cannot get over this thing.
this may just be the most random, jumbled and disjointed post i have ever written.

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whats happening to me I think I'm becoming an introvert! maybe it was those 3 days of solitude that did this to me or on the other hand maybe it was all the second hand chars i inhaled in the past few days ;) but somewhere something has changed and i just dont want to be around people anymore. right now i can imagine myself doing this the rest of the quarter. go to classes on the rare days that i have them, come back and stay in room away from civilization for rest of week. i've started loving the alone time i get these days even if it means i just sit and think about the most random things for hours....
whats really beginning to scary me is that day by day my tolerance level for people is decreasing decreasing and then decreasing a bit more. now there are just a handful of people i can be around and not get irritated thank god for them. maybe if i spend enough time with myself, when i get out of the dorm ill even be glad to see all those irritating people. and farhad is leaving :'( one down from that already quite small number.
one year ago today, our first spring quarter had just started and we still had a very large number or friends and we had no idea what sort of disasters were about to occur, no actually we had gotten a bit of a preview in MJ. today i listened to all my CD 6 songs to remind me of last spring quarter, when me and a lot of my friends made more bad decisions than we probably have ever made before, and decided this spring quarter will be everything that the last one wasn't: in other words good.
i like gender and society! the teachers a hard core feminist and i'm shaping up to be something of that sort to it seems after my research at cbl and my decision to take this course.
ok don't feel like typing anymore...will go find other modes of entertainment...
over and out.

4 classes tuesday
4 classes thursday
no classes other 5 days
this will be the quarter of my dreams! :D